In other news, remember how I wanted to wear an eeny meeny bikini next summer? Well, as my instagram followers now know (sorry for the half dressed woman popping up on your iphones) I decided to step my goal up a notch yesterday.
In the back of my mind, I knew my ultimate goal for the summer was to wear a two piece, with confidence, and no shorts, t shirt or cover up to hide behind. I made some poor decisions that did not align with this goal though. I know how easy it can be to set a goal on the back burner and before you know it, the time is here and you're not any closer. I decided a few days before to buy a bikini. Well stupid me forgets it's November, so on a few shopping trips, no bikinis were in sight. I was
Just to brag a bit- My husband is amazing. He is so supportive of my weight loss goals and is extremely encouraging. He never hesitates to tell me how good I'm doing and how proud he is of me. He says any bathing suit would look good on me now. Yeah right babe, but thanks anyway!
I decided, with the help of my fashion consultants, on this little number:
A few thoughts:
1-I don't want to be as skinny as the model. Curves are pretty yall!
2-I knew I needed something with support because no matter what weight I'll be, I'll always have the twins.
3- I have always wanted a red bikini!
4-The thing may never even fit. I ordered a size 10 botton (I wear a 12 pants now, but reviews say the bottoms run small) and a 36 DD top. Large twins..what can ya do? I know it'll be too small now but ideally it'll be too big by July. It was hard to decide what to order but I went with my best guess. At my lowest weight on WW (169) I wore a size 10 barely, so I figure at 158ish, a 10 should be okay. It takes alot of poundage for me to go down a size.
While this goal seems vain to some, I know alot of you can relate. I just want to feel pretty and not have to cover up with a thousand layers when it's a thousand degrees outside. I remember in high school, weighing 20 pounds less than I do now, I wore a t shirt and shorts to swim on my senior trip in Cancun. All my friends were skinny and tan, and I was chubby and fake baked. It was not a good feeling and I stuck out like a sore thumb. For once, I want to feel good about doing something as normal as wearing a bathing suit confidently. Next year, it'll happen.
My goal is to lose 25 more pounds by July. I think this is reasonable and realistic. I am not hardcore set on the pound amount because I am focused on toning up as well, and I know about muscle weighing more than fat, I just wanted some number to be able to measure.
Reality really hit me today when I got the email first thing saying my BIKINI had shipped already. Holy smokes. I plan to hang it on my closet door as a reminder. It's already working and I haven't even received it yet! I went to the gym to do some ab work, shoulders and arms this morning when all I really wanted to do was watch Real Housewives and be lazy till work. Let's hope #operationredbikini remains in full affect!
Oh, one more huge thing. I promise to post a picture in the bikini (if it ever fits properly) on this blog come summer time. No pressure..