Wednesday, October 3, 2012

I wanna wear an eeny meeny bikini, yall.

Alright, so this whole weight loss thing is great. It's a journey, it's tough, the scale sucks, running sucks (but works) yadda yadda yadda. I talk so much about my "journey" in this blog and my before and the struggle to get to my after, but I've never talked about where I want to be. So here we go. Like most women:

I want to be comfortable in my own skin.

I want to feel as sexy as my husband thinks I am.

I want to wear sleeveless shirts and shorts and not keep adjusting them or pulling at them.

I want to feel fit.

I want to be confident and proud of how far I've come.

I want to inspire others to better themselves, physically.

I want to show those who doubted me that I'm capable of more.

I want to be healthy for my future children.

I want to wear a dress that shows my curves and not worry if my hips look big.

I want to not hate shopping for clothes and stop being disappointed that they don't zip up.

I want to wear a bikini, on the beach, in front of people, and not suck in or feel uncomfortable. I want to rock the hell out of it the whole freakin' time.

When I started writing up this list, the bikini thing stuck out to me alot. Of course it's not as important as being fit and healthy and proud, but it's a goal I've always wanted to reach. Looking back, I've always been the "fat friend".  In high school, all my bff's were 110 pounds and I was 160. I was the wing-woman, if you will. I remember wearing a t-shirt and basketball (i.e. long) shorts over my bathing suit on my senior trip in Cancun, and overhearing my classmates saying how ridiculous I was. In my own head though, I needed to cover up. I never realized that piling on the clothes made me stand out more than letting my fat flag fly. (yeah, I just said that)

 In college, I wasn't much of a partier, but when I did go out with friends, I was the only one that didn't get hit on. I never got asked for my number. I stood out, though, again as being the fat friend. I have never gotten the care free feeling of wearing a bikini (other than a tankini) without shorts, a cover up, a towel wrapped around me, etc. and I want to feel that before I have 15 babies--okay, that is a biiiig exaggeration...

But I am bound and determined to make my eeny meeny bikini dream come true. It will happen. Next summer. I have plenty of time to lose the weight and tone up. I'm not dreaming up this totally unrealistic plan to be beach ready in 6 weeks. I can do this, and I will. And there will be photographic proof. Right on these pages, I promise you all. I am committed to this and you will see this girl in a bikini.

While daydreaming that I was at the beach, I came across a few beauties that I'd love to rock some day.




That's right. Go big or go home. No black one-pieces here. If I'm gonna do this, I might as well stick out like a sore thumb, but for being in a bright ass bikini, not for being covered up like an Alaskan salmon fisherman. 8 months and counting---well, 4 if you could Louisiana summer. Who's with me?


  1. I love those bikini's and my goal is to be in a bikini next summer. This mama of two wants to sport a bikini and feel HOT doing it. Wouldn't it be awesome if we all met up and had a bikini shoot together. LOL.. We so should. You got this girl. I have faith in you:)

  2. I love your goals, including the bikini! The pink one shoulder is my fav. You can so get there by the summer! We can find some bikini bootcamp or make up our own shenenigans if we have to! Cheering for you Kassie, I know you can do it!

  3. You got this girl!! That is one of my goals too ;)
    I totally understand the "fat friend" debacle!! I've always been there...ever since I was little ;( it sucks but after a while its just life....sad but true. But since my weight loss my life has changed in the littlest ways that I never thought it could! 113lbs down and sooooo many more to go!! Love the bikini choices though!!!! ;)

  4. YESSSS you are totally going to rock that bikini! I am so proud of you already...think about how far you've come! I'll go in with you and work on my bikini bod, too :) If you haven't ready my weight loss story yet, go read...we're totally the same person. I was ALWAYS the big girl in the group. I feel let's do this and prove everyone wrong!

    1. I did read your weight loss story and I totally much in common! It's so nice having someone to go through this with, and more importantly, to be inspired by!

  5. You will be rockin a bikini by next summer! I LOVE the mint green and the one with the fringe

  6. Cute suits! And you'll definitely be smokin' in one next summer :)

  7. I soooo want to have a bikini bod by next summer! I've never worn a bikini as an adult. I've always wore takinis because of my belly! I just found your blog, and I loved reading your weight loss story. You are such an inspiration for me to get back in the gym and start eating healthy again. By next summer, I hope we're both getting to wear itsy-bitsy teenie-weenie bikinis. I like the green and aqua suits, by the way. :)

  8. The bikins are sooo cute!! I totally want to be healthy for my future children too! I was lucky that both of my parents are pretty fit and concerned about their health...and I want to be too! LOL I want to get the rest of this weight off and develop healty habits that stick! I think we can get there! :)

  9. Love ALL those bikinis! Can you take a pic in your hott body first and then send those to me? Although I have already had 15 kids (jk, just 4) I think it's a great goal to want a bikini body!! You go girl!!

  10. Love the pink one!! ... I am right there with you wanting that bikini! We already have a Fl trip planned for April and I want to happily live in my suit for a week! I want to be proud of my stretch marks that will say "yeah, I had two babies, but look at me now!"

  11. Thanks for sharing your aspirations, Kassie. Keeping in shape is really a handful task. It takes not only the desire to achieve your goals, but the discipline to keep on track as well. Just stick to your dream and continue rocking the beach on!