Monday, April 1, 2013

What I learned layin' in the grass...

Today was a rough day.

I could sit here and mope about it and tell you my whoa is me story but the fact is, everybody is going through something. The fact is, tomorrow is a new day, thank ya baby J!

After today, I was not looking forward to my personal training session. Normally, I meet my trainer twice a week, but we're adding a session this week because I missed last Thursday to get a spray tan. Priorities. Kidding. Kind of.

Anyway, Kassie from back in the day would have got home and ate my feelings. I wanted pizza. I wanted chips. I wanted chocolate. That's what I would've done before. But DJ was waiting for me. This is why I signed up. I needed someone to be waiting on me. No backing out. No "I don't feel like it". I got to the gym and we stretched then got to work. Earlier in the day he texted me asking if I wanted to add a session today. I told him I ate like crap this weekend and I wanted him to be hard on me this week. Oops. I ate one too many of those pretty little white chocolate dipped oreos and maybe sushi and some bread and frozen yogurt too. Oops. Anyway, that's neither here nor there.

Have any of you heard of Battle Ropes? Those massive ropes that you basically just whip up and down till  you want to punch an old lady because it hurts so bad? We started with that. That was our warm up. My sessions with DJ are only 30 minutes long, but the are the toughest 30 minutes of life.
Note: I did not look this bad ass when using the ropes. I looked more like Honey Boo Boo attempting to open a jar of tightly closed pickles. Oh yeah, tongue out and all.


I got through the work out and walked into the gym. Oh yeah, we were outside in the already hot as balls Louisiana heat. I'm sitting there, listening to DJ explain my workouts for the days we don't meet and I get that super fun feeling where your hearing goes in and out and you know you'll either puke or pass out. I was luckily near the back exit and walked outside to get some air. I went from leaning again the gym wall, to sitting in the grass to flat out laying there.

Eyes closed, on my back, in the grass. The breeze felt good but the pukey feeling wasn't subsiding. I have never pushed myself to that limit. Lying there, I thought that even though I felt like crap, I was on top of the world. I was capable of so much more than I give myself credit for. And then I thought about all you girls and all your goals. And how we could never reach our goals if we didn't push ourselves to that point. Red bikini what?!


I've always been that way, and not just physically. Why are we so hard on ourselves? Why do you think we can only do so much? Why don't we say F that, I can go harder, run farther, lift more, etc. etc.


I think I am about to turn over a new leaf. Yes, I had a crappy day. But I did really well with my eating. Yes, I had to stop 3 times during my work out to rest, but each time I finished. Yes, I didn't finish everything on my long list of things to do today, but I finished half. I really really need to work on seeing the glass half full and knowing that I can do so much more than I give myself credit for. Can I get a Amen?



20 comments:

  1. Way to finish that work out! Hope you have a better day tomorrow :)

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  2. Great post! It's easy to be all "glass half full" when we are have great days, but it's when you have a crappy one and you can still see the glass as half full that you know you are making progress.

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  3. Amen sister. Keep up the great work. You got this :)
    -Harriet @ The Notebook Diaries

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  4. Preech!!! The honey boo boo ish was funny too:)

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  5. Speak a thing sista!!!!!!! You can do it!

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  6. Good job! Stay motivated! We all have those days hell I've been on a we all have those weeks kick lately.

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  7. Amen and hallelujah and all that jazz! I really needed to hear that because I am always underestimating myself and giving up way too soon. Awesome job on finishing that workout girl! I hope to be laying in the grass this week too now that I'm ready to push myself :)

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  8. AMEN! PS I hate those dang ropes!

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  9. AMEN sister! That sounds like a super tough workout. Good for you for finishing it!! And you are right, we are all in this together. A lot of my success is because of reading these blogs and IG-ing every single #operationredbikini thing I do. So thanks for starting it and being such an important part of the support system!

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  10. Amen! You are doing awesome and are crazy busy. Give yourself some credit lady <3

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  11. Amen sister! Those ropes look really tough! You are awesome!

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  12. Get it gurlll!!! You are doing a GREAT job!

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  13. Wow!!! I am so very inspired right now!!! Thanks for this I needed to read it!

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  14. Those ropes look fierce! At least you're getting it done! Awesome post. :)

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  15. Amen sista! Call me a sadist, but I have always wanted to do those ropes! That's the beauty of days, they always end and start anew, plus you need the bad ones to remind you to appreciate the really great ones. Thanks for being honest and reminding us that we are all human!

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  16. Amen lady - youre doing great, bad days always are a way to test myself - am I going to give into the fatty girl screaming for some pizza or am I going to put on my big girl panties and move past my bad day - good job!!

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  17. I love this. I'm pregnant for a few more weeks and then I am actually excited (if you know me you know this is weird) to get back to the gym and get pukey:-P

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  18. Girl you were writing about being close to throwing up just a while ago. Are you sure you're not overdoing it?
    Staying focused is important but as you well said: You need to give yourself credit for what you've already accomplished!

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  19. Amen! My post is going to be similar to this today!
    Brooklyn- browneyedgem.com

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  20. I literally just wrote a post about this a few days ago! I just joined Crossfit and the wod had me almost in tears, and I'm pretty sure I was the only one that was like that! I never wanted to go back after that, but here I go, I'm going back tonight!

    www.mamakiebler.blogspot.com

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